Meditation

Again.... I'm sank into the wave of meditation again... I heard an inner voice asking me...why it's not me to enjoy easy but high pay job, why I must travel till last week fall sick seriously but no one else know....and just for that stupid money ppl easily made by sitting on the sofa.! Well, I replied to it and said, calm down, my friend, look not on what you not possess, but what you are about to possess!